The Identitiy is Lost

Internet was finally capped yesterday... I didn't think the bastards would do it after that first email they sent. I only have 64k shared over a really bad wlan connection by two computers. I guess I won't be watching any new shows for the next couple of days.
And I was really looking forward to finding a copy of that show Carnivale from HBO

I was spending a lot of time in the video store this week for some reason I have this sudden urge to watch as many old movies as humanly possible.
Movieland downstairs has a pretty decent selection too. I finally found a copy of the GumBall Rally that i've been looking for, but it was out so i had to settle with the original 1963 Nutty Professor starring Jerry Lewis thats the comedian/actor not Jerry Lee Lewis The Rock and Roll Singer... I got them confused too for some reason :P

I was also able to finally rent blade runner, but i slept half way through the movie. This director's cut version really sucks!

I'm also still reading the picture of Dorian Gray. This book is really amazing not only in its fearless portrayal of its hedonist protagonist and the amazing theory on life that he discovers almost instantaneously after the fear of old age is taken out of the equation. Its not whether you agree or disagree its just that its there. I wouldn't call my new favourite book of all time, but its pretty high up on the list....

Even though summer has started and I have more than enough time to do anything I want I'm still taking my time reading this book just so I could let all the new ideas settle in. Which is not really that hard considering that I spend most of my time just sitting around doing nothing. I hate this inactivity, but I can't bring myself to escape it. I've been using what I've affectionately called the "Brain Dead" technique to escape my life more and more often. The problem is there is nothing to escape. I live a great life. I have friends, family, enough money to do pretty much what any guy my age would want to do and the freedom to use it. I just feel broken ... I wonder when this stupid feeling will go away....